Someone out there needs help in this area of their life and my testimony might encourage them. Since childhood, until Christ found me at age 18 in 1976, I was tormented by the desire to pursue the homosexual lifestyle, long before the subject was openly discussed in America. I have never understood why this sin had such a pull on my heart and, at times, it still would if I did not keep choosing to surrender my life to Christ. However, there is something, rather Someone, I want more than any sin - more than letting any sin rule me - for me, to live is to be in close friendship with Christ and God my Father.
Only Christ satisfies my heart, and He does so completely. The most ironic thing about my journey with God is that as I have determined to honor God and to die to selfish desires, God has given me incredible, amazing, encouraging, nurturing, healthy, godly friendships with many Christian women during the past 36 years. And Christ frees me from slavery to sinful thoughts to serve Him with joy. When my heart is on God, He is all my desire. It is so worth it to know and experience Christ as His follower, no matter what you have to give up or lose in order to gain Christ.
Entering into a friendship with Christ is the easiest thing in the world, as easy as falling into a chair. You just trust that it can hold you. Fall onto Jesus. Romans 4:5 says, "But to him who does not work, but believes on Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is accounted for righteousness." To learn how to have a friendship with Christ, I encourage you to check out the website www.thisisthegospel.com.